Can't lose what you never had- Westlife

Baby you're so beautiful, and when i'm near you, i can't breathe
A girl like you gets what she wants, when she wants it
You're so out of my league, I show you no emotion
Don't let you see, what you're doin' to me
I imagine the two of us together, but i've been living in reality
Fear of rejection, kept my love inside
But time is running out, so damn my foolish pride
I don't care if you think i'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losing you
You can't lose what you never had
Now i'm gonna confess, that i love you
I've been keeping it inside, feelin i could die
But if you turn away, baby that's okay
At least we had a moment, before you say goodbye
You can lose what you never had
Rules are made for breaking
Nothing ventured nothing gained
I'll be no worse off, then i am right now
and i might never get that chance again, baby
Fear of rejection, kept my love inside
Told my heart i didn't want you, but i lied
I don't care if you think i'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losing you,You can't lose what you never had
Now i'm gonna confess that i love you
I've been keeping it inside, feelin i could die
But if you turn away, baby that's okay
At least we'll have a moment before, you say good-bye
Here on the outside looking in
Don't wanna stay dreaming bout, what could have been
Need to hear you speak my name, even if you shoot me down in flames
I don't care if you think i'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losing you
You can't lose what you never had
Now i'm gonna confess that i love you
I've been keepin it inside, feelin i could die
But if you turn away, baby that's okay
At least we have a moment before, you say good-bye
You can't lose what you never had..

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Wheew..just came back from class chalet yesterday!! Soooooo fun!!

1st Day: We had BBQ for dinner.. and it was rather edible.. We got the fire going but somehow the wind blew it out, so we enlisted the help of someone nice living next to us.. and he helped!! So we got the fire going and started fanning.. The food was alright..though we headed out to Macs at 3 a.m. to get some food.. Yeps.. played mahjong.. didn't win anything at all.. *sob*
Went to sleep at 5 a.m. after winning 95% of the poker and balckjack games with Ashraf.. Went to sleep after that.. haha i woke up at 8/9(?) the next morn..

2nd Day: The mahjong table had to be returned so we were soooo bored holed up inside the chalet or rather a claustrophobic nightmare.. it's soooo small.. We tried to do stuff, but i ended up trying to sleep.. sooo we went for lunch, then cheryl went for her dental appointment, then we sat there and basically stoned.

2nd Night: We played asshole taiti, poker and Shepherd Jones and his sheep.. then went to sleep. Okay, me and ashraf talked bout life b4 slping.. and i slept beside him on mat 1. Somehow, some way, i woke up on mat 2!! Cool eh? Impossible tranposition from mat 1 to mat 2..Better than magic..ARGH.. i must have tossed and turned.. According to zhiheng, my arm fell upon his chest when he was slping.. OMG!!! ARGH!!! Luckily i never sleep beside a girl that night, if not, sure get slapped.. kk.. (I must admit i got lots of slping habits like attacking people when i am asleep, biting, kicking, slapping, shouting "Blackjack!!!" even during slp..lol..) JUST KIDDING!!! XD haha nay, i just tend to move.. my apologies to zhi heng if i woke you up.. =P can't help it.. haha my body very active at night.. @.@ and they say i sleep in a very weird way.. hmm.. i wonder.. =D

3rd day: Woke up early, had to check out.. sooo sad to leave everyone.. must have this chalet more often..then can tell lame jokes.. haha =) Yeps..

Here's what i look like after 2 nights of limited sleep.. -.-

Class Chalet at Costa Sands...Yeps..this is the small room we had to squeeze into.. =) awww.. someone sooo cute right?!! =)

lol.. kk bye!!

BACK FROM ZE MOTHERLAND!!!

Yeps, got back from Guangxi 1 day ago.. omg.. china's stuff are like reaaaaaaaaaalllly cheap.. for us though, not for them.. but anyway, the weather was real cooling and nice!!!!! Yeps.. had fun in China.. got stomach upset though.. lasted from 2nd last day of the trip all the way back to Singapore.. must be not used to the food there.. @.@ argh..

Food: Everything here swims in oil.. the oil here smells funny.. me pops reckons it must be peanut oil.. it smells like smelly tofu.. yeps, i had my first whiff of smelly tofu in China too.. it's real...er...smelly.. XD yeps.. the stuff here are quite okay..as long as u don't think bout who cooked it, whether he spit into it, what the animal was fed, what fertilisers did the veg receive, etc.. yep.. just eat and don't ponder.. QQ
some food are weird though. i saw one shop selling something about horses..i think they sell horse soup or something.. and they sell snake's bile in another place.. cool...

Traffic: There's a saying over there: "the brave cross the road and the timid hide."
Oooh, here's how to scream tourist: 1) Go over to a busy road. 2) Stand at the zebra crossing. 3) Wait for the green man to come on OR wait for all cards to stop.
Yep, sure fire way of screaming tourist. XD okay.. don't try that..
Here's how to get into an accident:
1) stand at a busy roadside and start looking from right to left then to right.
2) Walk forth.
3) Ta-daa.. road accident.
Don't worry, in china, even though the accident happens due to the jaywalker's fault, the owner of the car will still be blamed. . Yeps.. so just walk across the roads in a lesuirely manner and be rest assured that cars will stop, honk at u, but wouldn't bang you..unless u are real unlucky.. XD

Oh and must remember that they have 3 lanes, the extra one is for bicycles. Hmm.. getting hit by a bicycle is more embarrassing than getting hit by a car..

Shopping: Wheew.. i managed to get 2 shirts, jackets, gloves, and tea!!! i am a tea fanatic..XD Yeps, i bought a jacket for winter at only 29 RMB!! That's like less than S$6.. Yeps, but the zipper came off the second day after.. aww.. but it doesn't matter..that jacket is so thick, makes u look like king kong.. there are also lotsa hair underlining the jacket to keep u warm.. wonder what did those came from.. =P
Then my dad bought a jacket.. when zipped up, looks a bit like the mandarin collar suit u see in Mao's potrait.. @.@ but it's cheap so yeah..
And i love bargainning.. real fun..went to YangShuo, there's this Western street there..lotsa caucasians..and lotsa stuff to buy.. u have to bargain like mad cos the price they offer is exorbitant..

People: the people here are quite okay..i almost got spat on.. the spit-bomb missed my feet by inches.. lucky me.. oh and most people here don't bother to close the toilet door when going about their business..

Toilets: hmm.. most still don't have toilet paper..or doors.. even if they do have doors, the walls are so short, it could be mistaken for a hurdle.. and the public toilets stinks.. at some petrol stations where we usually stop for a break, there is this drain like channel that connects all the cubicles.. u need to squat or stand over that drain..and u do whatever u want in the cubicle.. and only after a period of time, water is released to flush away the remains..so if someone just pooped into the drain, and say.. the next flush is scheduled at 20 mins later..then the poop will remain there for the next 20 mins..so the next user will see it..but no choice.. yeps.. disgusting.. and imagine pooping into a drain?! it's not even one of those squat thingys.. it's just a narrow slit in the ground.. eww.. what if u miss? and not toilet paper or water.. so yeah.. QQ

ooh..and there was this cute girl on my tour bus!! very cuuutttee..woots.. @.@

lol..yeps.. hmm.. maybe i am going to Malaysia tomorrow.. most probably yes.. cool.. so i will be rushing to K.L., then rush back on Sunday, then rush off to class chalet on Mon..wow busy schedule.. oh noes.. stressed.. ARGH!!!

Edit: (see that paragraph up there? yeps, i swear my evil twin did it. I so did not type that.. XD)

Byes!!

going China tmr!!!

Cool, went to watch "Open Season" today with Jeromy, Ed, Jireh, Raaghav at the The Cathay.. XD.. the movie was real cute!!! Poor rabbits..getting used as oxygen mask, weapon, etc. The big bear is rather cute..

Something amazing happened today!!! We were at Starbucks, Ed was drinking his Mocha Frappocino, and we decided to have a game of "Taiti/Big 2". So i shuffled the cards as fairly as i could. Rifle shuffled twice, cut many a times. And i dealt the cards into 3 piles. One for me, one for Ed and one for Raaghav. And guess what i got!! I got a Royal Flush!!! Yeps!! According to careful calculations, being dealt a royal flush is 1 in 650,000 chances. And i got it!!! Woohoo!!! Now i swear i did not cheat or anything. All i did was shuffle and deal. So lucky!!! ^^ Roar.. =))))

After that, we went to Macs, went to Le Meriden, went all over looking for Jireh's bag.. Then they went to Ed's house, while i went home to pack.

So i am leaving for China tomorrow.. Aww.. so sad.. Will miss everyone.. o.0 Yeps!!

Aaron =)